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It was the darkest part of my life! Have you imagined how hard it is to be alone with no one to hold on that very crucial day! You're feelin so much pain and yet no shoulders to cry on. . No arms to comfort you. Far away from your friends and family, and you wouldn't even dare tellin them what just happened for they might worry a lot! Yes i didnt tell my family. I still remember my sister just texted me how am i doin here. How is my work? How was my food? How was my co-workers? My dorm? I've been at work for only 2 weeks then.. . And i remembered what i had just been said. . . . '' i'm ok here! I am now washing my clothes then after these im gonna fix my bed. . . What a lie?! I even cant get up from that hospital bed neither i cant move my leg that day. Thank god there's Emy, my co-worker, my supervisor sent him to help and take good care of me! Without any hesitations, he just helped me out from bringing up my meals to washing my bloody bondage and even wash my portable urinal. . Imagine this person who didnt even know me and just met here, lend a helping hand. Perhaps he did knew the feeling of bein alone hospitalized by that kind of accident! It's no ordinary fever or sickness i've got broken bones, my leg was almost divided into 3 pieces. .
I just keep on saying sorry to him for any troubles that i have caused him.
Then came Mike to substitute Emy. Same as Emy, a very kind and patient person. . How can i forget he's the one, aside from the nurse who's on duty that day saw my birdie hang lose. . That was because after the opertion they changed my clothes. I was still high from the anesthesia that day but i remember clearly what i just told mike then. . ''Mike nakita na ang bototoy ko ng nurse!''. Then i fell asleep, still high from the anesthesia. And when i woke up again i was screamin to death for i could feel the pain from the operation. I told the nurse and she gave me a shot of pain reliever. I could feel it runnin through my veins, i felt numb and fell asleep. I took a shot every 4 hours. I felt relieved. . . The following days im beginning to accept what just happened to me. . Everytime my doctor visit me and ask me if im ok well i always say yes. Then he asked why is it that everytime he asked why do i always say im ok and i told him that i gotta be ok. . Yes that's what im always thinkin ive gotta be strong for no one can help me better than my self that moment! If i stay weak then i would have a lesser chance to fast recovery.
''You are so brave!''. I just remembered what our coordinator just said to me. I had never shed a tear i remained strong not until the general manager of department visited me he saw my rosary and ask if im a christian and would i mind if he offer me a prayer and i said no not at all that is what i needed the most. Through his effort to say his prayer in english i didnt notice that tears runnin down my face! He is someone i barely know yet offered a prayer for me which is probably the greatest help i did ever get. . .
Its been a year now since i've had an accident while i was on the job at the factory i am workin'. It just happened really fast. I was just putting the strap on a 750kg metal plate to lift it up by the crane and move it towards the machine that will mold them into a part of the slide that we are manufacturing. For my ignorance of some safety precautions and which i believe that my supervisor had forgotten teaching me the procedures went out wrong. And on that very moment what i saw was the metal plate that stood up almost my height and weighs over ten times my body weight. It was so stupid of me to try saving that metal because i was just new on that kind of job, probably about two weeks then from that time we just got arrive here in taiwan, and was afraid to get scolded by my subordinates. The working place turned pitchblack! All i saw is that metal falling towards me. I did tried to run away from that metal but it was too late i tripped and it got my left leg. . . I just heard and felt my bone cracked! I just shouted out loud! I saw the metal on top of my leg. . I couldn't move my leg! It was too heavy! Then my co-workers hurriedly run to help lifting off that metal. . I shouted, ''kwaitien!'' which means hurry! I remembered what the taiwanese guy who is the first one who tried to help me. He just said in mandarine that it was too heavy for them to lift up that thing! Imagine there was four of them as far as i remember! Thank god they just did. But its too late i knew then that ive got broken bone. I tried lookin at my leg and noticed that my foot wasn't aligned with my leg. . By then i thought it's gonna be amputated. On that very moment, thoughts just played on my mind. . . Good thing is that it never came to question god. . Never came to a point asking why is it happening to me?. . . What i thought is that its just my left leg. . I would still have my other right. . Look, im still alive. . I could still go on with my life. . If god want thing to happen then so be it. . He wouldn't give me such thing which i couldn'nt pass through. All those thought that played on my mind was all encouragement no place for self pity... No time to think 4 any thoughts that could lose my strength. . I got to be strong! That's the way it should be!. . . Shiiiit! It was so damn painful. Finally the medics came to the rescue, mounted me into the strecher. . . Aaaaahhh. . . I swear to god it was so painful. . I never felt such pain before! The medics just got me in the ambulance heading to the nearest hospital. . While inside the ambulance one of the medics just gave me an oxygen and tryin to speak up with me. . He just asked me if i can speak chinese. I just said a little. . Funny thing is that out of nowhere it just came to my mind, how would i be able to wear my new pair of shoes my cousin gave to me and brought them with me here in taiwan. . ''Are we there yet?'' i just keep on askin for it really hurts so much! Finally we got into the emergency room. They torn out all my clothes i mean all of them! I dont know why? I asked the inturn i believe he is, who could speak english, if my foot has to be cut of. The doctor told me to move my foot and i just did which means that my foot will stay with me. . That moment i felt relieved. Now im breathing! I just said to my self!. . . Waaaahhh!. . . Godddd!. . . Shiiiit!. . . I shouted out loud! The doctor moved my foot in the proper position. . . I just bit the comforter covering my body and try not to shout! My coordinator who was with me that day told how brave i am to handle such accident! I just told him i have to! With no friends and relatives whom im gonna turn to? Of course god would always be there, he is the only one i knew i can count on and he just did! He never leave me alone. . . Then i was rushed to the OR to put some braces on my leg. . .
I have had a perfect time thinkin', reminiscin' about what just happened for the past one year of stay here in taiwan. It seems like a glimpse in the eye. So many things i encountered mostly are lessons learned. Lots of struggles, so much pain, even heartaches but there are also happy and loving moments. With all these experiences, i was just wondering would these make me a better person?
It was so touching to see how this old chinese woman taking good care of his dying husband who's on that day is in a coma. She never left him alone in the room. She always talk to him and even ask the old poor man to take his favorite food... She was trying to surprise him with those! Haaay. . . How i wish i could find someone that i could share my life with till we grow old and let death do us apart..
